I am still dealing with the impact and ramifications of my recent revelation concerning the yoke of Jesus (Matthew 11:28-30). It lead me to write the article concerning same sex attraction (SSA). It all leads me to one burning question: Who am I?
For so long I assumed that since I was attracted to men, that I was gay and I had to live that way. I don’t know anymore, as this impact is about as big as when I admitted to myself that I was gay, maybe even bigger. The media lied. The LGBT community lied. Society lied. Religion lied. EVERYTHING I had come to believe about myself was a falsehood. So who am I?
I lived under the yoke of oppression (trying to be something I’m not and trying to fit in) for so long, that all of a sudden my identity is gone. I am free, but what does that mean? A new paradigm is forming and my thinking is starting to change. Who am I?
I am still attracted to men, but I don’t want to have sex with them (turns out I never did). I’m not “cured”, so what happened? What does all this mean? WHO AM I ?!?
I am a child of God. Not gay. Not straight. Not bisexual. Not manly. Not feminine. Not a fag. Not queer. Not butch. Not religious. Not rugged. Not athletic.
I am just me. I’m still trying to define what that means, but I am me.