I think one of the most profound statements in the Bible is in Matthew 11:28-30, when Jesus said “Come unto me, all ye that labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”
Our preacher at church spoke on this and I had a “Aha!” moment, one that changed me forever. I was suddenly freed. Carrying the yoke of Christ means that no longer did have to be something I’m not. No longer did I have to follow the dictates of society or religion concerning what it means to be a man. No longer did I have to succumb to the propaganda of the LGBT community. (Colossians 2:20) All of a sudden I realized that God had not asked me to be straight (which I can’t) but just to love Him and keep his commandments. There are only ten.
It freed me to say to a guy “I love you” outside of a sexual context. It meant I didn’t any longer have to overcompensate and pretend to be manly. It meant I didn’t have to feel guilty for ‘betraying’ the LGBT community. I didn’t have to have a boyfriend. I didn’t have to have a girlfriend. I didn’t have to be conservative. I didn’t have to be liberal. I didn’t have to apologize to anyone for being SSA (gay). I didn’t have to apologize for being celibate. I didn’t have to apologize for masturbating. I didn’t have to apologize for noticing a cute guy’s butt. I didn’t have to apologize for missing David Wells…
I AM FREE!!!
Now this freedom doesn’t mean I can go hogwild and do anything I please (and believe me I don’t want to). It has freed me from having to live up to what somebody else’s idea of what a man is or what a gay guy is; and I lived with that for so long. God loves me for who and what I am, not what somebody thinks I should be.