“To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted; a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; a time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; a time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; a time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.”
In looking back at my life; the things that I have done, and the grace that was given to me by the Father, I am dumbfounded. There is much wisdom in these words. I born into a life of sin, and I had to nearly die to come to the Father. I had to pluck up the bad theology that was in me and plant a new belief. I had to kill my fleshly desires to allow the healing of my soul. I had to be broken down and humbled as a man, so I could be built back up as God’s child. I had to weep for the loss of my friend so I could laugh and rejoice that God is of the living. I had to mourn his death so I could dance the dance of the living. I had to cast away the stones of bad theology and religion, so I could gather the stones of faith. I had to refrain from embracing my old homosexual life and embrace the life of God. I lost my physical health only to get back my spiritual health. I had to keep the best parts of my life and cast away what was keeping me back. I had to tear out things keeping me from the Father and sew together a newness of spirit so that I would be presentable to him. I hate my old lifestyle and have learned to love myself. I was at war internally with myself and now I am peace. I kept silent for so long, NOW IS THE TIME TO SPEAK OUT!!!